my heart goes out to so many beautiful women who have experienced pregnancy and infant loss.
my third child was due on march 24 of this year.
at 11 weeks i went to the hospital and told them i thought i was miscarrying.
they did an ultra sound and there was no heart beat.
a few days later i had a d and c.
this baby was a complete surprise.
we were not planning on adding a third child so close to our second, but upon finding out we felt as if this third child completed our family and were so excited that all three of our kids would be between 18 to 19 months apart in age.
we started making plans like you do when you are pregnant.
i found the most darling vintage high chair at an antique store
and bought it the week before i miscarried.
all of us were so excited for this new little one who we never got to meet.
a week ago my brother and sister in law had their first child noah.
he was diagnosed with potter's syndrome at 19 weeks, meaning he was not developing any kidneys.
he took one earthly breath before returning to his father in heaven.
i have a friend who has had more miscarriages then she has babies here on earth.
i had a nurse who once told me she miscarried five times before having six children.
i have and i know friends who have suffered with infertility issues.
this life is bittersweet and beautiful and sorrowful.
i can't wait to meet my dear child who i think about every day. who i know is mine and have named.
i love and admire all of you who have been touched by this all to common affliction.
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