confront the thing you don't want to confront

the first step to getting what you want is having the courage to get rid of what you don't want.

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it took a lot of courage to summon up deep within my self to talk to my parents.
i was confronting not only my past with them, but my present.

it was easier for me to talk to my dad about it first.
here is the thing though, he did not see a lot of things the way i had.
he felt justified in many things that went on.

this was so hard for me.
i wanted him to say i was right, he was wrong and that he was sorry.

even though it didn't work out that way, that's okay.

it took me some time to get to that okay place, but i did.

this is not to say it was easy or fast and that i never was frustrated and cried.
it was hard and exhausting.

it was also amazing.

a weight had been lifted off of me.
i had said my piece, confronted my pain and was free to move on.

so confront and make the call or write the letter.

stop living in the past.
which is what you are doing if you are constantly rehashing
out all the details to your best friend or aunt.

do it so you can be present in your life and start living the life you've imagined today.