thoughts on having a third child

in less than two weeks we will have a new member of the family. 

up until then he has been with us in my belly.

hanging out, moving, living, 

kicking, rather strongly i might add.

soon he will be in mine and bryan's arms,

cooing, crying, eating, sleeping

and doing whatever other things he will do.

the things that will make him him.

i can't wait for them to place him on my chest.

to smell his head.

oh that baby smell is intoxicating.

to introduce him to his big sister and big brother for the first time.

to take him home and discover how we will do life as a family of five.

as exciting as all of this is,

i am also a little terrified.

i know that he will complete our family.

i know that as soon as i see him i won't ever be able to imagine life without him.

i also know that i haven't done the up in the middle of the night with kids thing 

in what feels like a very long time.

i don't know how i will keep up with a newborn and an energetic sister and brother.

 it will be interesting trying to tag a baby along to preschool drop offs and pick ups and just do daily life with a wee little one.

it will work out, but it feels daunting to me when i try to picture it in my head.

so here is to you baby boy.

i can already feel how strong you are and i can't wait to discover a thousand more things about you.

we already love you.

all four of us love you and the puppies will too.

in just two weeks from today you will be here in our home hanging out with  us.

total craziness boy.

 love you boy.