a letter to e concerning your name

e,

we had such a hard time coming up with a name for you.
everytime we thought we had decided on a name such as rocco, it would change to desmond, beau, or hubble.
it was frustrating. i never had that problem with your sister.
we decided shortly after finding out she was a girl and that was that.
there were many conversations spent with my parents with them throwing out many boy names that i knew were not for you.
we really liked hubble. which i was surprised that your dad liked it, i was expecting him to reject it as soon as i threw it out there but he loved it. and so did suzie q and nana snell and gma snell started coming around to it once she realized that was robert redford's name in the way we were.
great movie by the way.
as the last weeks of pregnancy went by mr. p and i were pretty certain that hubble would be your sweet little name, however i still was a tad uncertain of this.
on the sunday night before i was to be induced the next morning, i went about my evening as usual.
excited to welcome you into the world the next day, but nervous about life never being the same as it was with just the three of us.
i anxiously tried to fall asleep, but i was uncomfortable, over tired, anxious to meet you and i kept having to get up and pee.
when i finally did get to sleep i dreamed of you.
i dreamt of your face and it appeared the same as it did in my dreams years before i ever was pregnant with you or your sister. and when i held you in my dream i called you e and it was perfect.
i woke up way before the sun came up and said your name over and over in my head.

dad wasn't so sure of the name.
he said we never really talked about that name and was surprised that i mentioned it.

after we had you we gazed at your wonderous glorious face, arms, cute belly and scrunched up toes and we called you e.

we love you mr. e.

mom.